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I've been sick(ish) for the past 3 or so days, and am getting very restless.
I'm sitting at the kitchen counter eating Apple Cinnamon Cheerio. The box is on its side, just within arms reach (very practical if you just want to shove your hand in and get some) a finished mug of tea with honey and a bottle of echinacea is next to that (if you open the bottle it smells weird). I'm very hot in a hoodie and sweatpants. My phone is to my right, and I need to pick it up and call some people, but I haven't yet. Not like waiting will really make a difference with what I'm going to tell them.
This music is soothing and nice.
Dani
Eileen
Christina
Matt
Miranda
James
Ana
have said yes to coming on Sat
James said he was down for coming, but he wanted to bring a friend and I told him I'd get back to him. Brian too, I think?
Dave said maybe
Jackie and James
Anna and Anna
Haven't responded.

I need to go out, I need to go somewhere with nature. I need to go to the woods, I need something I'm not getting by sitting here.
I need to go change, it's too damn hot.
FUCK

Hair
&
New
Shoes


... I've got it made
(If only things were that simple)

Im having flashbacks of someone I never was


I love the fall

The AIDS walk finished, im sitting in central park on a rock alone...
Its quite beautiful out...
People watching and thinking
There's a woman waiting for someone, a blind date? A friend? She's tugging nerviously at her shirt...
There's a man playing with his child by a nearby tree, the little boy is running away from the quivering branch and giggeling.
A man trying to sell hts for 5 dollars, the nervous woman delcined numerous times despite his poor attempts.

The person the woman was meeting was a friend, they hugged and walked off. He was wearing yellow
The man and child, and hat man are gone too...

Anyway just sitting here and thinking and junk like that... I want to try to find a prom dress while im here.. Doubt it'll happen though lol
Then back to the island, and ... I haven't decided what to do or how to do it....

Yesterday, joels friends party was fun... Met people who I'd like to hang out with again... It was good getting away from the people who go to partys on the island

are effing catchy!


my life has been full of my topsy turvey lacrosse schedule..
our psal season is 10-2 i believe...
its been going quite well, and should get even better now that were into playoffs. we had a long talk with the team about having heart and all that good stuff, and got to climb the tree at portledge .. and roll down the hill!

off to shower and then chorus rehersal =/

last week went by as a dream.
It was actually pretty fucking weird. I was probably just over-tired.
I'm trying to figure out which days i did what... here's what i came up with- it's probably wrong:
Tuesday we had practice at wolves pond park. Dania had her spill - it was rough. i spent a good 3 hrs at the hospital. Thank god she's ok.
Wednesday our game was canceled, cooz almost got fired, there was free iced coffee at D&D which was great. I had mocha. I went with Dani, Eileen, Julia, and Vara to the colonade, which was fun. I also got my report card which was a 93.46 or something of the sort.
Thursday I had work from 6-11, and didn't go to practice because of it. Then hung out with Mattie and his friends.

That's the part that's hazy, I think I might have hung out with mattie on Wednesday- but I really can't remember... i'm getting too old.

Friday I had to get dressed up for school, which sucked. I had a half day- but had to go to all my classes [i only had three, but still]. Dani picked me up and we had brunch. We had our first lacrosse game, we won 16-1. I got the first goal of the season, and ended up getting 2 goals in the game, which really isn't a lot, but I only took 3 shots, so whatever. I got home and hung out with Anna.. we didn't really do much, except drive around and visit random friends. Hung out with John for a little. My phone died, it sucked.
Saturday I had to get up for lacrosse at 7.. ick, I ended up falling asleep again after turning off my Alarm, but thankfully my loving wife called and woke me up again. After practice i visited Dania and then slept for about 10 mins or so before getting woken up by Dani, who basically called me for no reason whatsoever, told me I couldn't sleep, and then that he had to go. oh well. Anna im'd me and asked if I would like to go out for a cigarette and reminisce our childhood memories. She's been so depressed because of joe. poor girl. Dani and Sunny came and we went to Taste of Chaos, which was good. Dani and i decided we were old and didn't mind just sitting instead of moshing or whatever. It's true, but I got up front for the used. they are amazing. We got lost for like 10 mins on the way home. damn mapquest. and then got burgar king. After I got home, Deniz and Fresh stopped by... we talked for a little, then they left and I went to sleep. FINALLY.
Today, Sunday, I didn't go to church - thank god. I was left alone till 11 when Nat and Alex tried jumping on me to get me to take them to the mall in jersey. Eventually I got up and went to the bank, picked up my ezpass from Dani and got Anna and Chris. We attempted to go to Garden State Plaza mall because it's so awsome. But the stupid thing was closed. WHO CLOSES THEIR MALLS ON SUNDAYS. It was like an hr there, and then a LONG time back cause I ended up coming through the city. ugh. OH YEAH, AND PEOPLE CAN'T DRIVE. douchebags.
We got Burger King, and then droped Chris off and went to a SAYO meeting. We're doing the AIDS walk again this year. Got to leave cause I had to drop Anna off home cause she was doing the update. Went to Paiges for a little, and then came home and wrote a stupid scholarship essay. ew. Mattie wanted to hang out, but it's too late now. And i haven't decied wether or not I thought he was weird yet. '
Tomorrow is a big Lax game against Curtis. Everyone should come. But yeah, I need to get some rest and take a shower.
Goodnight

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY




















... don't party too hard.

at hollister, not bad though... remindes me of the holidays =]
alex and i are getting a civil union when alex turns 18. we are also going to rap. although we havent yet come up with a name for our group or whatever.

this weekend was good. friday anna and i went to vinnys party, i only stayed a little cause my mom wanted the car home, which sucked.
sat i ended up going to deniz's party... it was ok, um a victorias secret angel moved in two appartments down. that excites me, i forget her name but shes hot lol. i told the wife [because now we share] and resolved to tap that before the end of the year hahaha <3
yesterday i had work, then anna and i went to lauras party, that was fun, we hung out with james and john... ate homemade pizza which was awsome [thanks dave].. we had to leave early from that too.. so not much drinking.
i didnt really want to drink this weekend except yesterday [kinda] ... weird stuff mann.
so yeah.. idk eventfull weekend i guess, hope this week is good too, althogh it prob wont be [cause thats my luck.. i do more when i have school then when im off haha]. i have work sat at 5 or 6 .. i forget, billy told me to come in for both the updates, but i have lacrosse tryouts this week, starting tomorrow... 730 am bitchhh
but im excited, i get to see all the new girls, and being a captain will be fun.
ive gotten a few letters from ejay, which is nice, hes doing good, kinda.. besides missing home and the like.. he sent me this heart made out of a dollar and a quarter, its pretty sweet.. i wish i knew how to make it! lol
hmm... tomorrow lax then idk whatt hopefully something fun... sat i might go to a 'beach party' at stevens tech or whatever in jearsey
well see about that... ihave to give chris an answer by tomorrow..
ok, off to take a shower cause im grosssss

I went with dani to look at suits and stuff.. He wants a pin stipe one, which is cool cause at least it isn't plain.. We looked at some dresses too, I didn't rele see any I loved...
'Just picture it'
I went to work today which was good... I got cofee twice... That might have been bad, but whatever... I rang all day so it was good, it passes time quick, sefus(how do u spell that?) told me I left the hard sensor on 2 things =/ I was being careless .. Oops, I told him I wouldn't do it again.. Promise... I ended up working a half hr later which wasn't bad at all... The manager covering grant.. Her name was jen.. She was nice... I saw dani for a little at tr... Then went to get anna.. We looked at a new hotel which was closer 2 stuff like beaches and what not, but 100 more expensive.. But w.e... Then went to adobe blues for tom ryans bday... It was fun, everything we ate and drank went on matts tab haha... Poor matt.. But he's creepy, so w.e lmao... James had a cute friend named john.. He told anna and I to hu with him when we said he was cute, but neiother of us did... Then I drove anna and myself home, we were gunna go out again, but my mom was being lame, so I dropped anna off, and now am home, and bored, oh well.. Guess ill sleep or something..
Valentines day is coming up, I never have a valentine... Whatever,
Anyway, since neither of us have anything to do, anna and I are getting ice cream and chocolate and watching shitty love movies instead of going out.. Brit murphy invited me to a party for single people for vday, idk if I'm gunna go, maybe... Last yr all I rem aboutvalentines day was that amalia and I were supposed 2 be valentines haha and that I had drivers ed w dani... Ice cream and moviess this yr =) haha isuck